Someday you'll need to stand tall again (emella) wrote,
Someday you'll need to stand tall again

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Haha. So my life has become this crazy routine of work, chill out, sleep, work, chill out, sleep. It's crazy how much of my energy is spent working. I'm thankful to have a job, but it's exhausting having to keep up.

I feel good about my job, though I still feel shitty about my life, if that makes sense.

I think I'm learning more and more who I'm supposed to be and what will make me happy.

I went on a road trip last weekend to Kentucky for a family reunion. It was good and kind of crazy at the same time. It was hotter than hot out and if you've ever gone to Kentucky it's pretty humid and it's the south. You wouldn't think geographically where it's located that it would be, but it's the south. Some of the family that I saw, their parents were cousins, NO JOKE, NONE!

Going to Kentucky kind of made me realize how much I've already done with my life. I mean to them, Columbus is a big city, Pittsburgh would be scary as hell. Going away to school is pretty daunting, but in a big city, in a major that's not really practical, well that's a bit different than what they're used to.

But anyway, Kentucky is good for understanding what it means to accomplish something.

Lately I've been yearning to travel the world again. It's not that I'm not grateful to have a job, but I just know that I want more. I'll never not want more. I feel like my purpose in life is to see and do as much as possible. I logically know I'll never go into space or become famous, but there's just something inside of me that still wants it so bad that I can't help and believe in it a little bit. No matter how much I tell myself it's impossible, I can't help but dream. That's so freaking ghey, but true at the same time.

I don't know what's going to happen, I have this tentative plan to stick it out with my job for a couple of years, but I don't want to become static. There are so many things I want to do that not only do I have to keep going and keep pushing myself, but I need to put my plans in place and just work, work, work for these goals.

I need to work harder.

That is all.
Tags: career, future, general, life, me, work

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