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Supernatural - Castiel fresco

December 2010

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Supernatural - Castiel Glorious

A little bit of sunshine

I'm a tiny bit sunburnt.

I threw an emo shit fit last night because a friend of mine got a job. That's kind of pathetic that instead of feeling happy for her I get all emo and retardedly depressed because I don't feel like I can get a job.

One good thing came out of it though, I was able to snap myself back to reality, which has never happened before. Usually it just gets worse until Mom fixes it.

Anyway so after I went through this stupidness I decided to grab my destiny by the balls. My motivation won't last, but today I've been really good about food intake and I also went out and helped clean the garage and I washed the car. We've still got more to do, but it's something.

No real news otherwise. Happy Memorial day!


Dude, I have totally done that before. When my friends passed their Ph.D. exams a few years ago, I got all emo because I'd dropped out and I had to get over myself too. It's not bad to feel that way; it's only bad if you don't reality check and get over it.

It's such an awkward situation because you logically know you should be happy, but emotionally you want to burn them with your eyes.

I dunno, it never makes sense to have emotional reactions. I guess it's just part of being human.

*Hugs* Thanks :)
That first sentence made me LOL so loudly that the cat was all afrighted.

*wipes eyes*
Haha, I'm glad I could amuse. :D
when my work colleague suddenly quit and had found a new job with one application, I had a minor breakdown. I bawled my eyes out at home about the injustice of life. I was happy for her, but at the same time I was insanely bitter. Still am a bit bitter about that. I guess it's a natural reaction.
Yeah, I mean I would feel the same way if the person I'm talking about were in the same field as me. Fortunately she's in a different field so it's not as comparable. Some of the people I graduated with competed for the same job as me but obviously only one of us got it. At first I was soooo bitter about her getting the job over me. I really felt like my work was better, but I guess in the end she was just a better fit. I'm okay with it now, but I know how hard it was at first.

The whole situation of others in similar situations succeeding in their endeavors faster or better always sucks because in my experience it just leave that bad taste in your mouth.

Eh anyway, I'm sorry you had to go through this situation as well. It sucks no matter what. :\