I will not cry angry tears of man pain
mood: 
aggravated
aggravatedThe people I was working with for the map thing finally got back to me. They've decided that they didn't like the icons I made so they want to go with icons similar to the ones on the map here.
The ones on that map aren't that great, but they aren't horrible either. The ones that the design correspondent lady sent me are full color photos with a glow around them. She sent me a mock up of the map with the new icons and they're ugly. Just really really ugly and I want to say that point blank but that won't work.
I feel like I have no say in this process anymore and I'm just the programmer/production worker. I don't know if I would even feel comfortable putting this in my portfolio.
I HATE THIS. My entire career is going to be compromising my design aesthetic and working with clients who expect me to do whatever they say and exactly how they want it.
FUCK THIS.
but honey, it's really going to be this way - if you work for customers and expect them to pay, you will have to cave sometimes. Sometimes they will be all over your art and love EVERYTHING you do. others might never be satisfied. you just have to learn to deal with it.
*hugs*
I understand that you have to work with people and create something that they want, but there is a line there between production artist and graphic designer. I'm not going to school and spending 75 grand on a graphic design degree to sit around and just piece together something the client already has composed in their head. They hired me because of my expertise and they should respect that.
It bugs me when they decide that they don't like something or they want to change something that I worked on without even consulting me. Especially in this instance. Deciding to change the illustration style once we've already decided on one doesn't fly, that's why I give them options in the first place.
I understand compromise, I really do, it's just when we've already agreed on something and then they want to change it for no good reason other than 'Oh the department head didn't like it' Well then WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
Gah. I'm sorry I'm like ranting. I appreciate your input and advice, it just makes me crazy sometimes.
I've been bitching at my Mom for the last 6 months saying that I don't want to be a production artist, I want to be a designer and she's been saying that the real world isn't like these freelance jobs that I've had. I'm just feeling like that's not true at this point, because this whole situation is just adding fuel to the fire that is my woes with this career.
I hate customer oriented careers, I hate the idea of doing anything and everything they say, I won't be happy in a completely customer based job. That's why I'm in an artistic career in the first place. If I wasn't all about the happiness factor I would be in business or some other job that is only as interesting as how much I get paid.
I don't know, I feel like I should be gaining control of my life but the more independence I get it seems like the more control I'm losing over my ideas and creative freedom.
I'm sorry I ranted at you, I'm just aggravated.