June 21st, 2009

Supernatural - John

Depression ain't just a thing

I feel like shit.

Graduation and Portfolio Review were on Friday. I'm finished with school.

I packed up and moved and now I feel like my whole life has been upset.

I feel like my friends, my apartment, and my job(school) have been ripped away from me.

I spent a shit ton of money on portfolio review and I probably won't get a job from it. I left Pittsburgh with no prospects, and the only thing that's changed is that I'm 100,000 dollars in debt and I have a piece of paper with my name on it.

I'm living in a city with no friends and no job and I'm bored.

I'm overwhelmed and bored at the same time, sad and depressed and I don't want to be here.

I feel like this is all, this is everything.

My most stressful and sad days in Pittsburgh were better than today.

I don't even really feel like I accomplished anything or did anything, I just feel down and out and bored and like now I have to go back to the real world. Pittsburgh feels like some wonderful playground awesome dream time and now I have to go home or wake up or something and it is awful. I feel awful.

This sucks.