January 18th, 2009

Supernatural - Dean angsty

Oh God

I'm thinking of selling my Buffy and Angels.

I know! I feel like crying because I really want to get that money for the camera I want to buy but it's my Buffy and Angels! I can download the entire series of each for free and it would be a bunch less things that I own, but I'm so sad/freaked/flustered.

What should I do?

I need to earn money like now, but I don't know how. I'm already working a freelance job and all I want is my camera. That's all I want for now. I didn't get a chance to get it for Christmas. I don't know what else to do. *sigh* I can't get a job and I don't know how to get freelance jobs when no one is advertising for them. I want a job like now. Gosh this sucks.

I also know I shouldn't want a possession so much, but I feel like this is a way to express and interpret my artistic side and it's like yearning inside me.

I don't know, I just want to be able to take pictures. *cries a little* (okay not really, but still)