Someday you'll need to stand tall again (emella) wrote,
Someday you'll need to stand tall again

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Another Day...

Went to Bed, Bath, and Beyond today, got pissed that I couldn't buy the comforter I wanted. It was really a duvet, but It was like 180$. We also went out to dinner and I was bad and got peanut butter pie. It was yummy.

Found out what dorm I'm supposed to be in also. Hawthorn Hall, fourth floor. No elevator.

There is no way in hell I am not having an elevator on the fourth floor. Mom is gonna call and talk to them about it tomorrow.

I also had a fit/minor breakdown about what to do with my life. I got mad and frustrated and said I wasn't going to college. ugh. I'm getting cold feet over it. Sort of.

And ok, I'm getting tired of the look that people give me when I say what I want to do, I'm like 'Oh, I want to get into movies, ya know writing scripts and what not.' and they always give me this look. It's so irritating. *sigh*

Am I making the right decision? Am I going to the right school? The right future? I am kinda getting anxious about the future, like I'm so depressed because I know I'll end up alone and hating my job. That's just how it's going to be, because I can't get off my ass and do anything about it. I have no drive and ambition. I can't even lose weight. How am I going to get the job I want if I can't even stick with a diet?

I fucking hate life. It's all a bunch of bullshit.

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